small doses

the appeal of life in new york lies largely in the variety at hand - there are so many very big things in a relatively small space - the very ground you walk seems to be humming with filthy self-satisfaction - everything smells like coffee, money and/or sex - everything is possible.

but in the cases of love, friendship, or even just looking people in eye - the spectrum is suddenly narrowed and parsed altogether differently - the wealth of human experience shrinks, leaving a mind-boggling array of suspiciously small doses in its wake. and these are not little things i'm talking about either.
exaggerated, often grotesque or gaudy, but always compartmentalized, conveniently symbolic and boiled down to an extent that is a little funny but mostly sad and uncomfortable - these small doses are caricatures of things much sadder, sweeter and more well-rounded --- things that ought to have been administered with care. .... and naturally, some are just boobs in spoons and dick jokes.